To The Under-Mothered Mother

Yesterday, she handed me her beautiful homemade card.  “I love you, Mommy,” it says. Not too many yesterdays ago, I wondered if this day would ever be.  If those cards would ever be made… for me.  I wondered… would I have a daughter?  And if I did… would she be able to love me?  Afraid-of-the-past … [Read more…]

When Worries Fall Down Like Flour On The Kitchen Floor

Once upon a time there was a soon-to-be young mother.  Wife to the man of her dreams, hardworking nurse, dedicated Christian… she thought she had it all together.  If you were an innocent observer, you would’ve thought so too. But if you’d walked by that black sports car in the parking lot of the doctor’s … [Read more…]

Auntie For A Day

  Maybe, sometimes, the best way to take care of me is to change the way I’m taking care of you. Even if only for a moment. To enter into your world like I’m an honored guest there.  To ask you questions like I’m eager to get to know you.  To tune out everything else. … [Read more…]

Love-Note Stockings

Looking for a way to save a few dollars this year?  And make a lasting impression on your loved ones? This year, my family is trying something new. It doesn’t make a mess. It doesn’t cost a dime. It won’t keep us up late Christmas Eve night with exasperating instructions. It’s small enough that it’s … [Read more…]

I’ll Carry You

Because I know… The time will come, and you will grow You’ll let go. Until then… I’ll carry you.   If you’re a mom of a boy… or a mom of a kid who doesn’t quite fit in “the box”… ok, if you’re a mom at all, you might enjoy reading this one. The rest … [Read more…]

Room On My Lap

“Not what we give, but what we share.  For the gift without the giver is bare.” ~ James Russell Lowell     Yesterday you needed me. Arms held up, calling my name But not quite forming your “O’s” “Mmmmm… mmmm…” you pleaded. And needed.   “In a minute,” I responded, Hands scrubbing dishes in the sink. … [Read more…]

You Are Not Your Past

The hope of a brighter future begins with five simple words: You are not your past. No matter where we’ve been, or what we’ve seen… today, we get to choose who we will be. There was a time when I stared at an ultrasound photo, knowing the kind of mother I wanted to be, but … [Read more…]

When The Sun Gets Happy And Rises

“Mama, I think when you say something good, the sun gets happy and rises.” My kids have been known to say some pretty profound stuff.  But this one took my breath away. I was lost in thought while my six year-old was coloring.  My artistic girl, the one who draws and leaves cards and notes … [Read more…]

She Was Somebody’s Daughter

I’m honored and blessed to be sharing over at Mamalode today.  Mamalode publishes thought-provoking, heartfelt articles that offer hope for our mothering journey.  The story I’m sharing today is a story that took me almost five years to write, because for a long time, the recollection of it only brought pain.  It’s a story from my ER … [Read more…]

Enough

“Come,” He whispered.  Then louder, “Come.” So they ran, and tumbled, and shouted, to Him.  Children of all shapes and sizes… some with patched-up holes in their clothes, some with dirt smudged on their faces, some with even a twig or a leaf in their hair, leftover from trees climbed. They didn’t fit the mold, … [Read more…]